Saturday, February 27, 2010

More Changes To Come....

Well my last post was about change. HAHAHA If I only knew what changes were to come! On Friday, February 19 I found out that we are going to have a baby! I had been having a few symptoms here and there, but just chalked them up to other things. Well, I decided I would just go get a couple $1 tests and see what happened. Got home and decided to take one, even though it was 3 in the afternoon, figuring it'd be negative either way since it wasn't the first urine of the day and all, I was shocked, there it was clear as day! I sat there stunned and then realized I should probably tell Nate. I took the test and showed him, he turned to me and said "What does that mean?" LOL I told him it meant I am going to have a baby and his eyes grew large and he asked if I was going to go tell Melody since just days before she had been asking for a sister.:) Needless to say, I couldn't believe it and took 2 more tests over the next couple of days, all positive
Wow! Such emotion coursing through me. Nate and I had talked about having another child, and while we weren't doing anything to prevent it we weren't exactly trying either. Nate and I had just decided it would happen when it was meant to. I had been hoping and praying for a baby for months but at the same time thinking we had time and needed to get things in our lives in order, such as finances and whatnot. So after the crazy holidays and since everybody has been so sick, I decided we should put it off and wait a while. Well SURPRISE! I couldn't be happier but I am nervous, anxious and a little scared. I mean it's been 4 years since we had a baby, we have no baby gear, diapers, clothes or anything else a baby needs. I guess we have 9 months to prepare. The kids seem pretty excited, though it's a little abstract still and Nate is happy and stressed, which is to be expected. Here's hoping we have a healthy, happy pregnancy and new bundle of joy!

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Change Can Be So Wonderful

      We went to Melody's second Parent/Teacher Conference on Thursday February 4 and it was filled with praise and the teacher kept telling us how "perfect" Melody is, I am so grateful that Melody enjoys school so much.  It was so wonderful to see the pride and happiness on not only Melody's face but also on Nate's as we left the school. I have never seen a prouder man!
Melody cannot wait to go to school she is always watching the time and pushing us out the door to catch the bus. The second she walks through the door she is eager to do homework and once it's done, she finds other things to do like color, write or teach her brothers. We have been so lucky with her self-motivation, eagerness and desire to grow and learn. I hope this is a life long thing. :)
     I realized the other day that we only have about 6 months to get Coda ready for school. He, however, is NOT as willing and eager to learn. He much rather play video games and run around, like a typical little boy, getting into trouble. So we are going to have to work hard on preparing him for school. Melody is very willing and anxious to help with this, she is constantly trying to show him how to write, spell and share all her knowledge with him. I am so thankful for her help and that she is such a great big sister!
I am so proud and grateful of each and every one of my family members.I have come to really acknowledge that as a family we will be able to tackle anything, it's something you always hear and kind of know, but to actually see and feel it, is so different! I am so excited for all that this year and all the years to come will hold for us!

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Caution: This post could cause some hurt, pain and anger.... but it's truthful.

So lately I have been wondering why people don't say more of what they are thinking or feeling. Well, that's not totally true. I understand that people want to be liked, they want to belong, etc. Yet they go around expressing their thoughts and feelings to others instead of the person they have the issue with. I am the first to admit that I am guilty of this, big time. In fact I didn't even want to write this blog for fear of insulting or offending people or losing friendships. Then Nate pointed out to me that a blog should be a place to express yourself. I bite my tongue so often and then rant to others about whatever is bothering me. So here it goes......
        People frustrate, enrage and disgust me! When did people become so selfish??!! Why is it okay to put yourself in front of your children?! People are curious as to why their children behave a certain way and then as I listen to their concerns and their frustrations and more of their "story" it is so clear to me! You have taken away their security, their safety for your own happiness. Well no wonder, why is it not obvious to you?? If I came and took away your home, the bed you've always known, your security just so that I can be happy, wouldn't you act out too? What if you didn't know how to express your anger and frustration? What if you didn't have the vocabulary to do so? Wouldn't you show it through behavior? If you are placed in a stranger's home all day with no say on who you are with, what you do, where you go, etc and then picked up late at night to be quickly fed and ushered to bed, wouldn't you feel like you have no control and therefore act "out of control"?
Why can't people sacrifice toys, cars, houses, etc even their own happiness to be with their children and provide them with the happiness they deserve? I remember when being a parent meant sacrifice, it meant doing whatever necessary to make your child a happy, well rounded individual. Somewhere that changed and those children that had parents like that for some reason decided that they are entitled to unconditional happiness even at the cost of innocent children! When I speak with and watch these people I realize that they are not truly happy. They are gaining nothing from constantly taking for themselves and then comes divorce and total upset of their children's lives, and they are still not happy and cannot seem to figure out why. Sometimes, I just want to grab people and shake them, scream at them all the things that seem to make such sense to me! It saddens me that so many of these kids are going to grow up and repeat the same sick patterns.
         Then you have the parents that for whatever reason, be it social norms, divorce, guilt or whatnot seem to think that you must give your child whatever he/she wants, be their best friend, not set guidelines, rules or discipline. What?! How could that be a good idea? Children need and want guidance and leadership! Without it they have nothing but more chaos and emptiness. Could a business run without it? Then how can one think a child can grow and prosper without it?
What has happened to this world? Where is the love and compassion, the thoughtfulness, sacrifice and everything that separates us from the animals? It makes me sick and I don't know how much longer I can bite my tongue!
This post doesn't do my thoughts and feelings justice but it's start.......

Monday, January 4, 2010

Happy New Year!

     Wow! I can't believe it is 2010! 2009 seemed to fly by way too quickly! All in all I think we had a great year and I am excited to see what the new year holds for us! (sorry for all the exclamation points)
New Year's Eve  was one of the best I have ever had! We had lunch with family and it was great to meet Nate's Aunt, Uncle and cousin. After lunch we hit the movie store and rented tons of movies and then picked up a bunch of snacks and noisemakers. Once home we set up movies and snacks and just relaxed.... for about 10 minutes and then we couldn't hold back anymore! We pulled out all the noisemakers and hats and were INCREDIBLY noisy! It was great!! Finally we settled down and watched movies until midnight, the boys however did not make it, we watched the ball drop and pulled out the sparkling cider and made more noise, waking up Coda, who smiled and stumbled to bed. Melody also hopped into bed and we left the exhausted Cadence on the couch. Nate and I climbed into bed and chatted for a couple of hours. It was wonderful! New Year's Day we did absolutely nothing! We laid around, snacked on whatever we could find and were incredibly lazy as a family! Best New Year's ever! I am so anxious to see what lies ahead for my family and I!
I don't usually set resolutions, I think we should strive to be better all the time and should constantly  be making goals and whatnot for ourselves. I have decided that I have a couple of goals for the year, however. The first goal is to pay off all our debt and to set up dedicated savings accounts for the kids. The second is to go on at least one "expensive" vacation and on one whole family camping trip. We also would like to look for a larger place and plan to move, debt free, next spring.
Happy New Year all, I hope this year is as great or better than last!

Christmas '09


Well, we made it through the holidays! :) They were great! Christmas was quiet and very enjoyable. I decided to make a ham and a bunch of treats on Christmas Eve this year. So Nate came home to a feast, which we all enjoyed and then we let the kids open 2 gifts each. First, they opened up their gifts from one another, it was darling! Melody received a baby doll that drinks, laughs and cries real tears from Cadence,  Coda received 2 cap guns, a rifle and a pistol and some extra caps for them from Melody and Cadence received a firetruck that makes tons of noise from Coda. Then they opened up jammies from Mom and Dad, which they quickly put on for Santa. Then we made cookies and Melody insisted that Santa needed Eggnog since everyone else would be giving him milk :) and off to bed they went. We heard giggling and talking for about 10 minutes followed by silence.
Christmas morning we were woken up at 6:30, which was a bit of a struggle but so worth it! Watching the kids was wonderful and we took our time opening and playing with each gift. I baked up a few more goodies and spent the rest of the day relaxing. No where to go, nothing to do, it was wonderful! That night we took the kids to see the lights at the Layton Park. Though we missed family, it was a nice change to have a quiet, relaxing day. It was probably the best Christmas I have ever had!
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